a black hole one day a year

i was raised to never feel sorry for myself.

...but sometimes....just maybe one day a year...i want to...

why.

why.

i dont want to deal with this anymore.  i dont think it's fair.  im just one of 30,000 people on this earth dealing with it.  sometimes i feel like im the only one.

my 27th birthday is two months away, then after that....i have ten years left according to the statistics.  hmm, maybe that means im allotted a midlife crisis and should buy or corvette or something.